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[May. 22nd, 2008|01:14 pm] |
life update:
1) I have until June 1st (but really May 30 because of Lisa's graduation) to get all of the stuff in my two story townhouse moved into a storage facility
2) I have three weeks in which I need to raise as much money as possible because...
3) June 16th I will be leaving to Europe for 8 weeks.
I will be starting my trip in Vienna, Austria (4 days), heading to Arezzo, Italy (to spend five weeks studying classical comedic physical theatre and taking weekend trips around Italy)
then (post-program) I will be visiting Cannes (2 days of beach life), then Barcelona (4 days), Paris (4 days), Amsterdam (2 days), London (3 days), and then the Edinburgh International Fringe Festival (the largest theatre event in the world- 3 days).
4) I will have a different roommate next year, which is always an interesting adjustment
5) I was not particularly well cast for next semester's season, so I will be devoting a lot of energy to putting up an acting-directing collaboration with a few other students next semester, in addition to taking a class for which I must write and perform a solo performance piece.
6) My sister is going to UNT in Denton and my Mom has moved into the city of Dallas, itself, so (oddly enough and without me expecting it) we have all ended up in close proximity to one another
7) I am going to start saving now because I would really like to visit Kara in China post-graduation |
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[May. 16th, 2008|03:13 am] |
JENNI:
what do I wear to your wedding?
I want to be in the general color scheme you've planned
but not so close to it that I look like I think I'm a member of it
this may seem silly
but I like to be perfectly costumed
or I suppose I should say outfitted
this is not Halloween or a themed party
I love you
I cannot wait to attend |
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[Nov. 15th, 2007|11:04 pm] |
I JUST GOT CAST AS MARIANNE IN TARTUFFE
this is such a huge deal for me, a great honor
I'll be working with one of our best directors and playing something outside of my box and the role is a really integral and nicely sized one!
I'm so happy! |
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[Aug. 14th, 2007|01:14 am] |
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NOBODY is sexier than Bob Dylan was in the 60's. |
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[Jul. 13th, 2007|11:08 am] |
I miss Kara Bierley with all of my heart.
I had a dream we were together on some long, ridiculous adventure yesterday.
The fact that I'm reading On the Road and she's the one who recommended it to me and also the two main characters remind me of us in a way is NOT helpful.
No more China. I need my soulmate. |
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[Jun. 9th, 2007|01:12 am] |
oh my gosh
I am getting progressively more miserable as the night goes on
I never even post to my journal
and I'm just postin' postin' postin' |
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[Jun. 8th, 2007|11:48 pm] |
the simple life goes to camp made me cry a little bit
I think the girls helping out at an obesity camp was a good idea |
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[Jun. 8th, 2007|10:14 pm] |
I just got off of work and I'm in a kind of bad mood. I think it's mostly due to the fact that I'm currently single and will be turning twenty next month and still have not, to this date, had a quality relationship. I really feel I'm ready for and deserve a life-enhancing relationship. I'm also, to a lesser extent, probably feeling this way because I'm worried about my competence level in regards to waiting tables. Today was my last day of training and I'm not very strong (and therefore not too great at carrying trays) and I still get flustered and scatter-brained sometimes. Lastly, my sister and mom are going out of town and I don't have any friends nearby who can come stay with me and I'm already feeling lonely.
This is such an honest entry and I'm a little embarassed to be posting something so typical and slightly pathetic. |
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[May. 21st, 2007|12:02 pm] |
I'm hoping to have a really productive, self-improving, healthy summer.
I am currently on a therapist search. I'm being really picky about it and I think rightfully so.
I'm going to apply for several jobs in the next couple of days. Hopefully something lucrative goes through.
My mom, my sister, and I are going to start dieting via Weight Watchers. We're going to do it the online way. We don't want to go to meetings where really large people stare at us for being there.
I am going to start jogging in the mornings (hopefully).
I want to find a Bible study group that I like, MAYBE go to sanctuary services at a local church, too (probably not, though, since I generally don't like those).
I want to read A LOT of things this summer. Acting and vocal theory top the list. Neuroscience and a few classic novels are on there, too.
I want to focus on spiritual, physical, and mental health this summer so I can be a happier person at school next year and more inclined toward artistic success, too.
I can't believe I'm updating and it's not a private entry.
I LJ all of the time, but it's usually too personal to be a public post.
It would be so nice to see everyone again. |
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[Nov. 25th, 2006|10:48 pm] |
I am going to see Kara soon
and I only have one final
and I am so excited for the lighting ceremony on campus
and I can't wait for any little holiday parties I may end up attending
and I will be in Houston for part of winter break
things are going so nicely for me right now |
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[Oct. 19th, 2006|03:03 am] |
my voice class is so good for my soul.
I will probably post more about it later. |
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[Oct. 11th, 2006|11:31 pm] |
jellythefish never posts
neither do I
but I wish she would |
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[Sep. 25th, 2006|10:49 pm] |
I'm making a public update. I don't think I have since I left.
Um, not being cast has been a tremendous blessing. I have a semester to really get my act together.
Being a good student and crewing a show and being in one and keeping your own, personal stuff together well takes a lot of discipline and focus. I don't know that I have enough right now to pull it all off.
Things have been all over the map for me, personally. I went from fine to miserable to unhappy to miserable back to fine in the past month and a half or so of my occupancy here. I'm happy to be back in "fine," though. This "fine" doesn't feel nearly as precarious as the previous one did.
There's nothing too terribly interesting to report. I kind of run around, behaving pretty much however I want to now. I'm much more comfortable here, if nothing else.
I want to go home and see Dames at Sea and meet up with whoever's home this weekend.
I'm not sure exactly how I'll pull the transportation off for that plan. |
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[Aug. 7th, 2006|04:24 am] |
So I got off of work at midnight.
I had left my lights on and had to get a jump from a fellow employee.
I then went to Wal-Mart to get boxes for packing/moving.
Here I sit, at 4:30, taking a break and journaling pointlessly.
I have to load up my mom's car with stuff I don't need until the evening tomorrow night by 6 a.m.
I have to load up my dad's car (he drove up to help me move) and mine with stuff to come with us when we drive over at 7 a.m.
Tomorrow is going to be so outrageous.
If Dad hadn't come up, and I were moving in on my own (as was originally planned), things would go very unsmoothly and I'd be absolutely miserable.
As it stands, I will only be moderately miserable.
I never realized how much work it is to inexpensively equip a living room, bedroom, kitchen, dining room, and bathroom all at once.
I'm really tired.
This may or may not seem coherent to me when I encounter it again the next time I find a way to get online. We haven't signed up for internet service yet.
I'm hoping we can bum off of someone else's wireless network. |
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[Jul. 14th, 2006|12:23 am] |
nineteen...
happy birthday to me |
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[Jul. 9th, 2006|01:32 am] |
I want someone who:
1) has a sense of humor compatible with (but not necessarily the same as) mine
2) understands me
3) supports me (and I don't mean financially...)
4) is self-sufficient (financially, emotionally, intellectually, etc.)- wants, not needs, me
5) is someone I like doing mudane things (like running errands) with
6) is more outgoing than me (but doesn't intimidate me too much)
7) is mature, at least on the levels that count
8) is conversational
9) is fairly attractive
10) is dynamic (not static) |
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[Jul. 3rd, 2006|01:23 am] |
so unhappy.
that's all. |
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[Jun. 7th, 2006|04:28 am] |
I'm going to see DMB August 19th at the Smirnoff Center!
I'm very, very, very excited! |
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[Jun. 6th, 2006|09:59 pm] |
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You know, I love when there's a feared day (like 01-01-00 or 06-06-06) that ends up being like any other. Maybe I'm speaking too soon. There are two whole hours left. Hell may reign on earth or Jesus may make his second coming yet. We'll see. I doubt it. |
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[May. 31st, 2006|01:49 am] |
I love it when people you used to be completely infatuated but never had a chance with go off to college for a couple of years and become very unattractive.
Someone else must have been flipping through their facebook friends and experienced such satisfaction at some point, too, right?
Or I'm just an awful, awful person with shaky self-esteem?
Or both...? |
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[May. 27th, 2006|12:40 pm] |
Why is Anna Paquin so bad?
I guess this whole time I've just been waiting for her to develop the character the way she should, like maybe go from the gawky, sensitive, soft-spoken type to Rogue as I know her.
She never did.
She just totally misses the mark.
It's not the same character at all.
It's like she never read any of the comics or watched the 1993 cartoon as research.
Anna, you lose.
Sorry I'm using my livejournal to talk about X-Men still. I know that's lame. I do redeem a few points by admitting it's lame. It's almost more pathetic, though, because I acknowledge that it's lame and still feel compelled enough to do it that I do.
I'm really excited about having a townhouse next year, even if my room is too small for anything bigger than a twin-sized bed.
Everyone seems to be losing weight. I really want to lose about 15 pounds.
I had a really nice, fun time with Kara. I'm glad she came up here.
It feels really nice not to be at SMU. It's a bit suffocating. I'm grateful for my training, but my classes were more engaging in high school and I know I'm not getting the kind of education I could be elsewhere.
Still, I am grateful to be getting any. I wasn't sure I'd be able to.
I'm still looking for a job. I don't think Banana Republic wants me. |
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[May. 26th, 2006|03:15 pm] |
I thought X3 was horrible.
The end indicates they'll be making another one.
I don't know if I can handle that.
I was left feeling disgusted, angered, bewildered, and, most of all, disappointed.
In my opinion, the cinematography left a lot to be desired, was nowhere near as good as it was in the first two (particularly the second), and looked cheap, muddled, and ugly in at least half the scenes.
The writing was particularly bad, and made it difficult for the actors to portray the characters well. I mean, it's hard enough to play those characters well without some cheesy, looking for cheap thrills, unintelligent and lacking in creativity writers making things more difficult.
Some of the costumes were lame.
The directing was pretty horrible and flat. There wasn't enough mystery or complexity to it.
And I didn't agree at all with a few of the major plot choices.
Gross. I might just start pretending the series ended at two. If they make a fourth, they need to fire their writers and director and give Halle Berry an ego check so she stops pushing them to make her character, that she doesn't play well and that none of the writers have ever written well, so much bigger.
Famke played her character, whom I have never particularly liked, very well, well enough for the character not to annoy me, and she should be commended on that. I was impressed with her performance.
p.s. I give up on Anna Paquin. I don't like her anymore. She was bad in The Squid and the Whale, bad in Hurlyburly, bad in that dumb horror movie she did, did a dumb horror movie, and was god awful in this X-Men and never aptly portrayed Rogue in the others. Fix that gap in your teeth and stop being successful just because you were really good for an eight year old and won some Oscar. You don't deserve to be paid for your acting.
the end. |
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[May. 20th, 2006|01:12 am] |
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"If there is an advanced alien race watching mankind from somewhere beyond the stars, they must be struck with astonishment and wonder at the enthusiasm with which we court our own annihilation." |
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[May. 16th, 2006|09:59 pm] |
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This summer should be productive, because it's not going to be as sociable as the last two were.
I love my friends, so I want to see them, but I'm not worried a summer apart will be a huge detriment to my important friendships, so it can be taken in stride.
Besides, most of us won't be coming back for any more summers to come for the rest of our lives.
Weird, I know. |
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[May. 14th, 2006|01:18 am] |
I wish I had more pictures from high school.
It's funny to remember freshman year with the self-authored monologues, the children's show, the drama behind The Prime of Miss Jean Brodie, the girls who were "the deal" at the time who all dropped out, the fear that went into auditioning, the silent roles Kristyn and I played for so many shows, the befuddlement those of us who had never previously been introduced to the blacklight show had over it, the improvisations centering around umbrellas and uno cards and whatever else old Waddy came up with, the tapes of all of our performances (I still have mine), Andrew always storming out of the room, the introduction for so many of us to the insanity that was Kara Bierley, etc.
That feels like a completely different lifetime.
I wish I could re-visit it for a couple of days to see just how much things have changed for those of us who made it through four years in that turbulent program. |
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[May. 7th, 2006|12:46 am] |
I am really unhappy.
And lonely.
Maybe I deserve that for right now. |
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[Apr. 20th, 2006|10:54 pm] |
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This week has really taken its toll on me- emotionally, physically, and mentally (but, thankfully, not academically). |
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[Apr. 6th, 2006|12:38 am] |
I really get so excited about theatre. I guess it's going to be a little disappointing when something ugly happens to me and I have to get grounded again, but I'm having fun with daydreaming about my life in it for right now.
I don't understand how I'm supposed to get a signature from my parents for something for the university. That's pretty ridiculous. I'm not sure what to do about that.
I'm growing up so much. I'm maturing in some ways and becoming sillier in others and it's actually starting to become an enjoyable process.
I'm sunburned. Where I'm not sunburned, though, I have a lovely tan.
I'm sad not to be going home to Houston.
I miss several people a whole lot. |
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[Mar. 31st, 2006|04:48 pm] |
I've been really nostalgic lately. In particular, I can't stop thinking about the second semester of junior year and the summer that followed and how crazy and liberating that time period was.
Memories of the antics of Kara and me are just rampant. I'm glad for the things from high school which still amuse me.
I am falling further and further in love with theatre, particularly acting.
I'm also seeing more clearly what I actually need to do to have a career and to thrive in the mean time and it's helping me to have some personal objectives and ideas for structure for the next few years.
Theatre is just so good for my soul. I'm doing the right thing. This is the right field for me. And the department, which is really sort of an enigma during the first years, is unfolding slowly to me and making sense. I think it's probably the right one for me to be in. |
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[Mar. 18th, 2006|09:10 pm] |
I saw The Libertine. It's NOT worth anyone's while.
I guess I'll be heading out pretty early tomorrow morning.
I'm kind of sad to go.
Houston's home and Dallas never will be. |
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[Mar. 18th, 2006|12:23 pm] |
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V for Vendetta's really well done and I think the movie has a lot to say. The topics it explores, themselves, aren't anything too novel or ultra-complex, but the elaboration upon them is thoughtful and nicely done. I hope people can see that the means aren't necessarily what's being advocated, it's just at a certain point in the life of an organization, they might the only resort left. |
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[Mar. 16th, 2006|04:03 pm] |
I can't help but feel I'm really giving up a lot unnecessarily by attending SMU. I mean, the only thing that's special about it is its theatrical training and you can be trained to act well in a number of places. I'm not particularly attached to the campus. It's beautiful, but it has no real character beyond that. I don't like the population there. I don't have a remarkable number of friends. The academics aren't impressive to me. The professors aren't as in love with what they teach or well-credentialed as I'd like them to be. Therapy is nice and I like that it's free, but are theatre and therapy what I want my entire college experience to be about? I just don't know.
Anyway, I have a lot of work to do over this break. We're leaving Sunday and we'll be house hunting once we get there, since my mom's moving back to Dallas for her new job she'll be getting in April. It'll be weird not to live in Houston. Hopefully I can get a car so I can visit.
When I get back, I won't have any shows to crew or any projects to act in and I can really focus on exercising and dieting and classwork and that'll be a nice change of pace. This semester has been a lot more work than last semester. Six hours is a lot of time to lose in rehearsals every night. If I were a psych major, college would be a breeze. |
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[Feb. 11th, 2006|04:57 pm] |
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I broke my finger in two places yesterday, so it's a complex fracture. It's broken almost on the joint. I have to go to a hand specialist because the x-rays revealed that this fracture is the kind most likely to leave me incapable of regaining full strength and range of movement and they want to try to prevent that as much as possible. This is going to change a lot for my movement in Medea, so I'm worried. Plus, there's some nerve damage and tendon strain, so it hurts a lot. Did you know your fingertips have more nerves than any other non-erogenous zone part of your body? I didn't. That is all. |
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[Feb. 3rd, 2006|02:57 pm] |
I don't really take very kindly to being belittled. It's not very wise to assume I'll put up with being treated like a pushover in any form or fashion, because sometimes I may let myself be, but those times have been becoming less and less frequent since I started therapy- many, many months ago. |
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[Feb. 1st, 2006|01:36 pm] |
"The world is full of suffering, suffering is caused by desire, suffering can be avoided through an extinguishing of desire"
If you don't desire things, what do you live for? What do you reach for? What makes you get up and out of bed in the morning?
I find it hard to believe life is meant to be lived only to help others.
Even if you do help others, you're desiring to make a difference and may not succeed, and, therefore, suffer via disappointment.
Maybe I'm ignorant to be combatting a basic Buddhist principle, but I don't think so. |
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[Jan. 25th, 2006|01:05 pm] |
I really like a lot of the senior class here.
I think that's something noteworthy I should document somewhere, if for no reason other than that it's something positive I've been thinking regularly this semester.
Self-discipline and composure are two things I'll be focusing on this semester, the former because it's valuable to the craft and the latter for more than one reason, but for lighting and text analysis in particular.
I hope I get to see Cy-Falls' UIL show. I know I'll be going to state with Molly, but I'm not sure how I'll be getting down to Houston for the run.
Lastly, Olivia, Jenny, and I got 225 dollar tickets just for being at a park past midnight and I'm not sure how I'm going to deal with that. If you contest a ticket and lose, I think you get charged the fine on top of the court fees, which would only make things worse. You shouldn't have to gamble with the law, especially for such a stupid offense. |
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[Jan. 22nd, 2006|05:42 pm] |
Last night was so crazy, sloppy, messy, entertaining, and weird.
I'm glad I'm not a drinker.
Instead, I just like to laugh at anyone and everyone who loses all sense of control or, for that matter, sense in general.
Crazy.
So sloppy.
Really funny.
Olivia and I were greatly amused. |
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[Jan. 15th, 2006|12:18 am] |
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I'm back at school and it feels really good, particularly because there are a handful of people I just really love here. Still, I've got my guard up. This is a theatrical environment, afterall, and there are some people who have proven you can't put anything past them and there are always more upsets than in other social environments, it seems. |
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[Jan. 8th, 2006|08:48 pm] |
I just can't stand feeling awkward, incompetent, relatively low in worth, and uncharming. I would have better self-esteem if I had reason to, but I don't.
I should probably post this as a private entry.
But I don't want to for some reason.
I want to go back to school.
And I want to continue to figure things out.
Being at home yields no sense of progression. |
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[Jan. 5th, 2006|11:30 pm] |
I had a nice time in Colorado.
It was good to take a break from Houston.
I would've been fine had I stayed, but it's better that I didn't, I think.
I don't go back to school until the 15th and classes don't start until the 17th.
I might post some pictures from my trip, just because it was so beautiful and I know at least a few people who would like to scroll by them on their friends page. |
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[Dec. 25th, 2005|01:48 pm] |
Merry Christmas!
The gift breakdown:
-My mom gave me a bunch of toiletries, food, and quarters for when I go back to school, two pairs of pajama pants, a 1.5" thick memory foam mattress topper, a small printer designed specifically/only for printing photos, and (since we saved so much money shopping before dawn the day after Thanksgiving...) some money!
-My sister gave me some slippers and a personal CD player.
-My dad gave me It's the Rage, That Thing You Do, and Better Off Dead on DVD and ordered the Hurlyburly playscript for me.
-One of my aunts and my only remaining great grandmother sent me money.
-My uncle Mike gave me some money for Christmas while visiting and I bought The Wedding Singer and Can't Hardly Wait on DVD and a new purse and hat.
I went to one of the worst Christmas services I've ever been to last night. I quietly laughed through at least half of it. The speaker was really inarticulate and the solo at the end of the service was sung by someone less than stellar.
Hope everyone's having a good holiday. |
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[Dec. 24th, 2005|05:23 pm] |
Okay, so definitely over my little jaunt with infatuation with a certain someone.
Like, I could fall again, but only if I decide to.
And, I decided to fall in the first place.
Having control is completely awesome.
That is all.
p.s. It doesn't seem very difficult to maintain a good GPA at SMU if you're not in the honors college. I slacked off more than I ever plan on slacking off again in my non-theatre classes and still got a 3.207 for this semester. I almost feel guilty... or foolish, like I'm trading in a thorough education for good theatrical training. I mean, seriously, I studied maybe 20 minutes every two weeks.
the end. |
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[Dec. 24th, 2005|05:11 pm] |
It's Christmas Eve and it's a pretty standard one.
I am so glad that first semester is over, not because things will necessarily be any easier externally in the semesters to come, but because I've got so much better of an idea of what I'm getting into, what I want to avoid, what I can't avoid, what I can do to alleviate aggravation, who to trust and talk to about what, etc.
This break home has been pretty wonderful, too. I already have just let go of so much tension. I really marvel at those who never let things cause them tension in the first place. What an amazing thing to have come naturally to you.
I wonder what's in store for next semester. |
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[Dec. 6th, 2005|04:21 am] |
concerned about screen time for Rogue
hate Jean Grey, so not too excited for Phoenix Saga
it all looks awesome and beautifully done, though
I can't wait to see it
even though they've already screwed up more than they've gotten right in the film adaptations
I'm more excited about Wolverine, especially since Hugh's signed on for the project now
it should be out in 2007 |
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[Dec. 5th, 2005|10:01 pm] |
Looking for love is so much better than reveling in discomfort or contempt.
I'm not sure how I feel about going home, but there are several people I'm going to enjoy hanging out with.
Medea was kind of fun today and we haven't even begun yet. |
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[Dec. 3rd, 2005|01:56 pm] |
Things are pretty tense and/or messy here for the time being. It's hard to pick your battles and give people the space they need when you live together. I, personally, don't have any battles, but I'm kind of conflicted. I'm trying to stay as neutral as possible but am dissatisfied with how skewed people's perceptions of things can be when they want them to.
I can't imagine knowing there are problems which exist in oneself or socially and either:
a) not wanting to know what they are so that you can fix them or...
b) knowing what they are and resisting doing what you can to work them out.
Anyway, things are personally pretty healthy and functional and all of that good stuff.
I will be in the chorus for Medea and stage managing a SMUST production, so I'll be pretty busy with theatre for the first time since I've gotten here.
I'm in the right place (at least for now), I'm doing the right thing, I'm on the right personal track and I'm seeing the enormous difference between taking care of yourself and being selfish and it's allowing me to feel better about asserting myself and worse about occasional episodes of passive-aggression, and (overall) I'm growing. Knowing what work you have to do on yourself isn't such a big deal when you don't panic about it and decide to kind of just hop in the stream of self-betterment and let the current push you towards a place of more inner peace. Oh my goodness, I sound so ridiculous. Since when do I use metaphors in my online journal?
Anyway, I hope my friends from home have settled into their new schools and have had a moment to catch their breaths and engage in a little introspection and are feeling that they, too, have made the right decisions. |
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[Nov. 18th, 2005|09:39 am] |
I'm feeling a lot more in control now. I really think had I come to college in the mentality I'm in at this point, I wouldn't have had all the extensive internal struggles and unhappiness I had in the first place, but that's okay because I now feel in a better place to start next semester. I feel stable again and it's been that way for about two weeks, so maybe it will stick. There are some less than savory things happening within the lives of my friends here that are stressful to watch and deal with, but I, personally, am feeling level again.
I'm glad to go home for Thanksgiving and see my cat and my "old" friends.
Christmas is going to be so weird.
I need a non-AMC job. I refuse to ever go back there again. |
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[Nov. 5th, 2005|03:07 pm] |
You don't need to be completely understood and you don't need to completely understand others; that takes a lot of mystery and surprise out of life.
You'd have nothing left to express if the whole gist of you was gotten and you told of every change and development in your life.
Just an understanding of how to treat one another and what matters most to you needs to be gotten.
The rest can happen naturally. |
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[Nov. 1st, 2005|03:56 am] |
Okay, so basically, I'm very confused a lot of the time and overwhelmed. I feel like I'm kind of in a large, dark storage room and have been for a while but let my eyes adjust and now I'm getting little glimpses of light and realizing just how dark the room is and I'm hoping these glimpses of light will eventually lead the way to further shedding of light. That's a really convoluted metaphor, but you get the picture and I won't dwell on that too much longer.
All that really matters to me right now is eating healthy and fulfilling meals, exercising, sleeping, and figuring out what it is I feel I'm personally missing...
and I'm pretty sure I think that's okay, good even. |
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